Are you nervous?
Last weekend, our friends Amanda and Matt visited from the Smokey Mountains to help us finish the nursery. Matt was Drew’s heavy-lifting buddy and Amanda was my giggling partner in crime. We really had a great time seeing our old friends!
About 10 minutes before they left to go back home, Matt stood in my kitchen, eating a gloriously warm cinnamon roll, and asked, “Are you nervous? About the baby?”
Oddly enough, nobody has asked me this yet. I started thinking about it and quickly answered in the negative. No, I am not nervous about the responsibility of becoming a parent, as I’m sure most first-timers are. Somehow, my mind is at ease when it comes to thinking about holding that little boy in my arms, feeding him in a way that only I can, and loving him more than I ever thought I could. I’m not even nervous about how little sleep I will get or how busy my life will become, or how those cloth diapers aren’t going to wash themselves. Those everyday responsibility issues? Not a problem.
But I am nervous. I’m scared out of my mind about the bad stuff that can happen. My thoughts linger on the morbid side of things a bit too often, so you can imagine the possibilities running through my head. Basically, it’s the uncontrollable things in this world that make me nervous.
But that’s ok. We’ll get through it. I can already tell that Westley is a strong little boy, and he does have the most amazing parents ever (totally kidding). We’ll get through it.
Wednesday 2, 2012
I love this post … I think all too often, people offer WAY too much advice & don’t ask enough questions!! Kudos to your sweet friends for CARING!
I think it’s always scary to think of things that could go wrong, but the fact that you’re so excited about the good parts means you’re going to be such a great mama … control the things you can & go with the flow with those you can’t! 
AND yes, you are the most amazing parents!!! So so so happy for you guys.
Wednesday 2, 2012
Love this! I almost feel like something must be wrong with me that I’m not terrified by pregnancy, birth, and motherhood after hearing so many people’s fears, but instead I feel really in love with it all. I have faith in my body’s ability to carry and deliver a baby, and I have faith in my heart’s ability to love my baby girl to bits.