A Nerd Like Me

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Dear Baby

I’ve been writing these offline since I found out I was pregnant. Thought I would share them with you and continue to post as the urge hits me.

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12.11.11

Dear Baby,

We’ve been trying to make you a reality for four months. So this week, when I finally saw two pink lines instead of one, I was jumping up and down for joy…and then I sat down because I pulled a muscle. I’m overwhelmed and excited. You, our little sweet pea, are the only thing on my mind right now. Holding a conversation is difficult, because the only thing I want to scream is, “I’M PREGNANT!” But of course I can’t do that. Not yet.

Your dad is in denial. I don’t think he’ll believe you’re in there until he hears your heart beat or sees your picture. And that’s okay. We all process things differently, little one, and you are definitely something to process.

I don’t feel you yet. No morning sickness, no kicks. But I know you’re there, bonding with me already. I can’t wait to go through this journey with you.

Love,

Mom

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12.23.2011

Dear Baby,

Your dad and the rest of our family are so happy you are on the way! I can just imagine how spoiled rotten you will be. We finally spilled the beans a couple of nights ago, after we found out that your dad has to have surgery before Christmas and we will be staying home for the holiday. We knew telling our loved ones would be the best early Christmas present ever! Some screamed, some cried, some didn’t even believe me, but I assured them all that you are safe, secure and completely loved.

While you are only the size of a blueberry right now, I feel the effects of you all over. I’m tired and cranky and have never been so bloated in all my life. I’m still not sick but the thought of certain foods are really throwing me for a loop. It’s possible that I now hate avocados…that can’t be right. I really, really HOPE that’s not right.

Merry Christmas, little one. I hope you enjoy the food and the fun.

Love,

Mom

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1.25.2012

Dear Baby,

We finally saw you a couple of weeks ago! You looked like a tiny little blob, but you wouldn’t stop dancing and doing aerobics. I’m a little worried that you’re going to be just as hyper as me. Please be like your dad instead. Seriously.

Since we saw you, you’ve grown quite a bit. You are already the size of a lime and getting bigger by the minute. I don’t feel you dancing, but I feel you in other not-so-awesome ways. But it’s cool. I’ll get through this for you.

You should see how much I’ve been reading! I’m already working really hard to get ready for you, but I’m also scared out of my mind. See, you’ll learn this about me someday but I’m an obsessive planner. I need to be ready for anything and everything in advance. But I’m starting to realize that no matter how many books I read or items I register for, I’m not going to be completely ready for you. Ever. I’m going to have to learn to take it one day at a time and roll with the proverbial punches. Is it possible that you will be the one to finally teach me patience?

Let’s chat on my 29^th birthday. It’s coming up and I’m so happy you’ll be with me as I celebrate!

Love,

Mom

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2.18.2012

Dear Baby,

My 29^th birthday was a couple of weeks ago, which means that I am officially the age I will be when I meet you. I feel really old, like I may not be able to keep up, so take it easy on me, k?

I have a gut feeling that you are a girl. That you will wear cute little cardigans and dresses and let me braid your hair and paint your nails. I’ve already picked out the most adorable bathing suit for you if you are, in fact, a little lady. You will definitely need one because we live 45 minutes from the beach and will be going there all the time. Your dad and I love being outside, enjoying nature. We can’t wait for you to explore the world with us.

We find out what clothes to buy in just a few short weeks. Until then, surprise me with a kick or two please. I can’t wait to feel you!

Love,

Mom

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3.04.2012

Dear Baby,

It’s a beautiful sunny day and I’ve been sitting outside, reading my beloved books and enjoying the sunshine. Sitting outside got me thinking about you and our future together. There are so many things we can’t wait to do with you. So many wonders of this world that we want to show you.

We want to take you to Disney World. We want to camp in the Grand Canyon with you. We want to introduce you to the best music and movies ever made, which were way before our time and yours. We want to wake you up at five in the morning to surprise you with homemade pancakes and a day trip to the beach. We want you to be there with us when we spend an entire Sunday in bed watching tv, or outside reading in the sunshine.

Our lives will forever be yours. We will always be there for you, and we hope that you will always want to be there with us.

Love,

Mom

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